25+ weeks

This pregnancy has been way different this second time around. Maybe it's all the running around and chasing after Preston, the constant bending down and picking up, the lack of naps and lounging around, the doubling of size..... I don't know what it is, probably all of the above. Maybe it's the fact my body only had 5 months to "recover" before I became pregnant again, and I never really recovered because I was still nursing. My body is saying no mas (no more!). And unfortunately I still have 15 weeks left (but hopefully i can go early like i did with preston and only have 13 left)!

With this pregnancy I have been experiencing cramping, pressure, aches, and contractions. I have actually started to think I would prefer all the vomiting and constant sickness from Preston's pregnancy, then the constant aches and pains I have this time around. I guess my desire for being pregnant hasn't changed. I really wish i knew what it was like to "love being pregnant". Clearly i am not one of those lucky few.

With all that talk of pregnancy, I do have to say that I love having a baby in my home. I love being loved unconditionally by an innocent spirit that I have been entrusted with. I love endless amounts of cuddles and kisses and everything else.... good, bad, and in different that comes with a new baby. I love being a mom. Although i don't love the journey of bringing a baby into this world, I am grateful that I can, and that I get to.